But often than not, they are from broken families and that is usually what mold them into what they becomes. When the people who bring you into this world leave or abandon you, it's hard to have much morals and humanity left cos they left you to fend for yourself. Me, being from a broken family is far more fortunate than them because my mum take cares of me and loves me with all she can offer.
But I can relate to them because people from broken families are usually ashamed of their situation. Although it's not our fault, we still feel people will either look down on us or pity us. So we become v reserved and guarded from normal people. We don't trust people that much but when we do, we will stand by that person even if he/she is a liar/ murderer/ married/ monster etc... And because we are already 'defective' in our life, we tends to want to prove our worth and tell people 'Hey, I'm no different from you, if anything, I'm better than any of you!'
Even when we did anything wrong, people will say things like 'we can't blame them cos they come from broken families'. That's how I can get away with so many mischiefs when I was young ;) Violence and anger in the family also add on to us keeping away from our parents. When they fight, we feel anguish cos we feel like we are invisible in their eyes. So when they try to talk to us about why we are behaving weirdly, it's hard to confide because they are actually the problem.
People from broken families crave to be love by other people since they can't find it at home. And yet they don't believe that love will last but still dreams of having their own family to create the 'happy family' tat they lack in their lives. For me, as long as I think or feel my partner might be cheating on me or losing interest in me, I will be the one to leave first. Of cos, most of the times, I'm being overly sensitive but honestly, I will not subject myself to any hurt from people I love. Ya, that's why I fucked up alot of my relationships cos I'm highly insecure.
People like us are the most possessive species on earth cos they can't handle their partners leaving them too. Some can't handle long r/s cos they never see one in their lives as a good example and I guess, Jeff Dahmer prefer to have unconscious partners where he can satisfy himself without having to maintain a r/s with anyone. Him eating his prey gives him the satisfaction that he will own them forever in him. But in the end, he tells people not to blame his parents and he will hold all responsibilities for his actions which I admire. But not for his murderous ways of cos.
Aileen Wuornos on the other hand really makes my heart sad. Because she was rebellious, she was kicked out of house and left to fend for herself on the street w/o a home. I believe she used to be a sweet little girl until her broken family makes her short tempered, unguided and lost. And she turned to prostitution cos she don't have proper education. And the money she made becomes her tool to make friends accept her, which is sad. The only person who believed in her and loved her was a lesbian and in order to make her stay and pay for their expenses, Aileen had finally resorted to killing men and stealing from them. I think handling so many men since such young age and being on the streets for so long had turned her heart cold on men. In the end, the lesbian testify against her in order to keep herself from trouble and Aileen took all the charges to protect the lesbian.
These people are actually very street smart and talented, esp at talking and making people like them and believe them. I know such people in my life, believe me, they can make you say sorry even when they are in the wrong.
But anyway, murderers are murderers, victims are people with feelings and families too, so we can't forgive them just because they have a sad history. Just want to tell everyone that whatever happens in your marriage might not affect you when you are ending it, but it affects people around you more than you think. Esp your own kids.
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