People in my life

Every so often, I will think of someone who has been in my life b4. Today, I tot of a very good fren whom I used to hang out with so much. Due to alot of misunderstandings, our friendship has ended but when I'm feeling down sometimes, I will think of her and how we used to be there for each other last time. I've nv really been so close to anyone like I am to her so it's really kinda sad that the friendship has to end this way. I think she's the only friend who had seen me cry and I let her into my inner self without hesitation. We used to be like a pair of twins, going everywhere tog. I hope she will understand n learn why things happen this way and I'm sure she has grown up now that she's a mum. Though things can never be the same again, I do wish her happiness in her new found life and maybe one day when we meet on the streets, we can still say hi to each other cos friendship really dun come easy. To me, I always find it hard to rem the bad things and its normally the good memories that stay with me. Thanks for being there for me through my darkest days, ur existence has indeed cheer me up during those times. :)

Picking up

Saw this at the clinic this morning:

"It's not whether you get knocked down; it's whether you get up again" - Vince Lombardi

Kinda get to me, firstly cos of all the falls I had in life, I still managed to get up. Maybe still limping along, but at least I tried.

Secondly cos I really did fell down 2 days ago. I was thinking abt things while I was climbing down the overhead bridge. I was lucky that it was the last two steps. I forgotten whether it's becos I couldn;t see the steps cos I was holding a big bag or it's becos my legs just gave way. I was too deep in thought and the next time I knew I was kneeing on the rough ground. It's bloody painful and I'm careful when I'm climbing the stairs now... I think it's gonna be ugly after it heal, gonna have a scar on my already pokka dot legs :(

Life's a big question mark now. I just tendered my resignation, can't stand my boss anymore. She's too demanding and high expectataion. Always trying to compare me with the 'last time' ppl. So I gave her the letter and tell her I dun think Im good enough, she should look for more experience staff. But I havent found a job yet, I lied that I had found one. Lied so convincingly to everyone that I almost believe I really had a new job waiting LOL

Nvm, life will always brings more surprises, shall just go along the path and see what life has in store for me. Future is too big a word for me now.

Kiss the rain

Under the same black sky,
Someone is praying like I do
Only a little harder, and a little sadder
The silent desperate cry
Sometimes you have to open your eyes wider
Open your heart to the sound of the night
To know that the world does not revolve around you
Whatever you want, is so small to someone else
Someone who is crying in the heart
And smiling to the world

If only I could see the way you do

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x7ZmTKRyInc

Sometimes when you come to a stop,
feeling like you don't know how to continue,
let the music ease the torments n stress,
before you begin a new journey in life.

"In life, you don't get people you want. You get people you need; to teach you, to hurt you, to love you, to make you laugh. To make you exactly the person you should be."

The things in life
the wonders of the world
nothing compares to the warm embrace
of the knight giving amour.
Songs heals, beauty appease and friend comforts
Love does it all but also cause you to need them more.
The game is spinning in my head
the castles are too high in the air
how do I reach them
when I'm not given my wings to fly
Promises are spoken vows
or just convenient empty words
Watching them disppear into the air
and a new one's heard again
Expectations is the evil sow
that reaps only disappointments
The throb increases as time goes
I don't rem much abt the sunshine on ur face
but I smile at the moonlight in ur eyes
if only for an hour
before the hourglass call out
beckoning you to the pumpkin carriage
carting you off into the darkness
It's like sand in your hand
heavy and solid and real,
but slipping through your fingers
until a grain or two, for memories keep
The estacy that excites,
the sleeping dragon that relaxes,
the icy touch that keeps me awake,
the love that tires and wears.
The path ahead is a wall
no poster, no map, no directions
when will it fall, or will I fall
unto the sandy path or into your arms?

Never love again

Never believe in love again, it's never meant to be in my life. I should learn to live with it.

Sometimes

Sometimes the harder you try to wish for something, the further u will be.

Loneliness

Nobody will really understand the meaning of it unless they have been through it. There's no one you can tell it to because you are all alone.